As of recent.

Hey! I haven't posted in awhile it feels like. I go on spurts, when I am super inspired I post all the time. I feel like I am still inspired but tired and working full time is another adjustment for me as well. I am learning a lot about the design industry. Being a commercial interior designer is hard. I am seeing how it can seriously consume you. Coming in early to work, Staying late, sometimes bringing work stress home with you. I have never felt so many feelings in one time. It can be super intimidating to work with NCIDQ interior designers, Leed and AIA architects etc. Sometimes I find myself scared of the people that surround me. I think I get scared cause I think I can't do well. Or what if I mess up, they can hire a new designer etc. I am learning you can't wrap yourself in that. Being my best self, is the only best self I can be. I am currently working on getting hours for my NCIDQ and its hard. I have a different respect for designers.  I want a family, I want balance and I am learning it takes hard work to do both. Maybe some of us design great things because we don't see the greatness in ourselves. It truly is beautiful when you finally realize you are great, and you design great things because we are all great.